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Jul. 24th, 2006 | 10:29 pm
location: work
mood: numbnumb
music: Utada - Sanctuary
posted by: princesspete in mylifesucks_com

Since I'm still the only one here and don't have to worry about the congestion yet, I've got another suckage story for you. This isn't an incident, though, it's a way of life, but that's cool, too. After all, you can write about any way and any time life sucked. It's not restrictive.

How I feel about me and the world.

It seems that I am on a different page than the rest of the world. Like I see things one way, and everyone else sees it a different way. So all the time I talk to other people and they complain about how their life sucks because they can't follow their dreams or so and so doesn't love them the way they want, and I ask them why they can't follow their dreams. Their answer: "because that's how life is."

That makes no sense to me. I just don't get it. I ask why life has to be that way, but it's as if normal people just can't comprehend that there are options in life if no one else is following them. I like to help people, and I try to show them that just because 99% of people don't follow their dreams or do what they want doesn't mean they have to follow the pattern, but I swear normals are just built with that innate knowledge and can't change it.

This sucks because I can't help them no matter how much I want to. But more than that, it sucks because I'm so alone in the world. Being the only one like that, I can't identify with anyone else or get them to corroborate the thoughts in my head. It also means that I can break that mold - that I can love as deep as I want, follow whatever dreams I want, and feel how I want, but no one can feel that way about me back. No one can share that dream, or that love, and in the end I will still be alone in my head, the only member of the world I want everone so desperately to belong to. That is what sucks the most.

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